"I know what I know / Could not fill a thimble."

Friday, March 27, 2015

35 years... 35 things I know....

On the Eve of my 36th birthday, I humbly share 35 things I have learned in my 35 years.  I would like to thank all of you for being my teachers! And now I feel old enough to be the teacher...

1. Learn How to do the Great Commandment, Golden Rule & Great Commission.  Do them well.
2. Memorizing the Word at a young age sticks with you for life.  Young people memorize as much as you can!
3. Power for living comes through prayer and difficult times.
4. Momma knows best!
5. Artistic expression is a gift to the world.  Share it!
6. Travel... Move... Experience other cultures.
7. Marry young and travel together before you have kids.
8. Have kids.
9. My Pentecostal roots planted in Presbyterian-like soil have served me well in my quest for knowing The Father, Son & Holy Spirit.
10.  We have much to learn from our African friend's spirit & generosity
11. Love what you do and do it with your whole heart.
12.  Education matters, but life experience trumps.
13.  Find 3 close friends who you can tell anything to and keep them for life.
14.  Surround yourself with the Church and you will never be alone -- in the whole world.
15. Use your talents!  The world needs them.
16.  "Be yourself!  Everyone else is taken". -Oscar Wilde)
17. I have literarily seen God bring back the dead, through prayer.  Pray and pray hard.
18. Take time to bask in beauty.
19.  Eat well!
20. Surf
21. Go to the Hardly Strictly Bluegrass Festival in San Francisco at least once in your lifetime.
22. See Yosemite, Yellowstone, the Grand Canyon & Cape Town, South Africa.
23. Many good things are best in calculated moderation.  In areas of "grey" stir toward moderation.
24.  Take time to be quiet.  Meditation centers you on what is important.
25. Forgive.... Over and over and over
26. Depression is real and there is hope.
27. Don't pass up opportunities to see live music.  You will rarely regret it.
28. Listen loud to music & dance
29. Life passes by so ridiculously fast!
30. Be a faithful friend. Which often means asking good question & listening.
31. Sabbath & get enough sleep
32. Respect your husband through your words & actions
33. Focus on the GOOD news.
34. Don't stand by and ignore injustice. Learn, Educate, & Change it!
35.  Be thankful for EVERY DAY! 

Thursday, February 6, 2014

Why does every Christian mom have a blog?

Why does every Christian mom have a blog?
 I have noticed a trend over the last 6 years or so, since my first-born came into my life, and I entered into the mighty decade of my 30s.  All of my girfriends had a blog, read a blog or wished they could blog.  A friend pressured me that I, too, needed to join the world of blogging.  So I opened a blogger account and spent hours trying to formulate something profound that I could post.  Something that would gain the accolades of my girlfriends and perhaps get noticed by strangers too.  Followers!  How many followers could I gain?
Then I checked my heart.  What was my motivation for blogging?  I have never considered myself a master writer.  In fact, I am quite honest with the fact that my grammar stinks.  Often, as I write a sentence, I think wow, that does not sound right. When I finish a document, Microsoft Word often points out the fact with green underlines and red words. 
Other friends of mine have a knack for it.  Their grammar is not an embarrassment and those who do suffer from grammar deficiency, openly admit it, and know that   their blog, is not noticed for its literary genius, but more for a laugh, or an ah-ha. 
So I turned my blog into a daily devotional.  I started reading the Bible and posting my thoughts on it...Ooo...vulnerable, I know!  I was careful to not write anything too exposing.  I didn’t talk about my bouts with depression or the fact that I struggle with pleasing others & folding laundry.  I did it more for personal accountability.  Then I stopped.  I realized that the online blog was not the best place for me to talk to God.  And the best place for me to talk to my girlfriends was not on a screen. 
But I continued to notice that many Christian women feel a need to blog.  Is it because we are afraid to sit face-to-face?  Is it because we think our girlfriends will judge us if we blurt out what is really going on in our head?  Somehow the keyboard and computer screen is safer than sharing our deep dark verbal mutterings with someone whose eyes we can see. 
30 something women want to be heard.  That is my assessment.  And for some reason blogging seems to be the best forum for that.  My question is, are we holding back in speaking up in *real life* and trading it in for the muddled down sharing that happens when our 1 year old finally decides to go down for a nap? 
What would happen if we started sharing our thoughts to older women?  What if we started sharing   What if we shared our dreams, struggles and observations to an audience who isn’t neccarily looking to hear them?  Are we afraid of being ridiculed or *disliked* or told we are wrong? 
our thoughts with our husbands and our politicians?
Please don’t get me wrong- I still encourage writers to write and if blogging is the best forum for that, go for it.  God is certainly using blogs to change people’s thoughts and attitudes about Himself, relationships, parenting and struggle.  But I think we are hungry for something more.  I believe Christian women in their 30s need to start living and speaking their blog thoughts.   Not in an effort to be recognized, or appreciated or gain acclimation- but instead to make their voice heard in a place other than facebook and blogger.   God designed us for community and hugs- not emotion icons- but real hugs.   God designed us with ears to hear and hands to act.  So I am going to stop feel guilty about the fact that my last blog post was sharing pictures of our new house, almost a year ago, and I am going to instead commit to being more open and honest with the people I see every day- not through writing, but through being.   Now I think I will go post this on my blog.  :)

Saturday, January 19, 2013

Before & After Comfort House- BEFORE Pictures

We closed on our first house on the 15th of January and we truly feel blessed to finally have a home to come home to.
First order of business was to have the popcorn ceilings scraped and refinished.  We are very pleased with how they have come out.
Next, painting!  We are really looking forward to making this space our own!

 Living Room, view from kitchen.

 Not a fan of the foam green in the kitchen.
 Wallpaper has got to go! 
 Dining Room
 Entry way.   We have some cool plans for this.
 The Texas Room, aka Nursery.
 Unfortunately son 1s room is pink and purple currently.
 Guest bath.
 Nothing special about Master Bedroom yet.
 Hideous wallpaper.  But, oh the tub!
 That poor baby! 

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Heb. 12

10 They disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, in order that we may share in his holiness. 11 No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.
 12 Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees. 13 “Make level paths for your feet,”[b] so that the lame may not be disabled, but rather healed.

Sometimes I get discouraged and just want to quit the things God has put into my path to help lead or show others.  It's a good reminder that even through hard times (unpleasant and painful) God is training us.  I think He is trying to remind me of my feebleness...that I truly can't do anything without His help.  When I get a a place of weak knees, I find myself depending more on Him to work.  I can do my best and do my best to strengthen my attitude toward it all, but I must always keep in mind that God is the one making the level path for me.  God I need your healing and to truly understand what it means to wake up in the morning with The Cross of Christ as my focus.  

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

1 Tim 4

15: Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.

It's easy to get discouraged in doing good work.  There are times where I just feel burned out and that all of my projects are going to crash around me.  Paul reminds those in ministry to "persevere."  Lord my my heart be one of perseverance....one that doesn't give up.  May You open the doors of projects I am to follow you in and shut others that you want me to let go of.  I want to do Your good work, but I do know it can't be done in my strength.  Encourage and help me Persevere!  

Monday, November 29, 2010

1 Thess. 5

9 For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. 10 He died for us so that, whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with him. 11 Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.

A good reminder of God's grace- He doesn't desire us to suffer- even upon His return.  Our hope is that fact that once life ends we live together with him, because he died for us.  
 THEREFORE- Lord help me encourage those around me and to build them up.  Teach me how to be better at that.   

Sunday, November 28, 2010

1 Thess. 2

17 But, brothers and sisters, when we were orphaned by being separated from you for a short time (in person, not in thought), out of our intense longing we made every effort to see you. 18 For we wanted to come to you—certainly I, Paul, did, again and again—but Satan blocked our way. 19 For what is our hope, our joy, or the crown in which we will glory in the presence of our Lord Jesus when he comes? Is it not you? 20 Indeed, you are our glory and joy.

It's been a while, too long, since I have journaled.  Recommit.  But I felt a calling back to God's Word today.  
I was pondering this expression of Paul.  Truly the Thesselonians and all those God intrusted to him, Paul loved.  He had an intense longing to minister to them.  I began wondering if everyone has a passion, and intense longing to minister to certain individuals.  For some, it's the poor....for some it's Africans, for some it's their children.  For others it may be their co-workers.  

I also wonder how everything would change if we would ask the Lord to give us the same hope, the same joy, and the same crown of glory that Paul felt for them, to us, in our context.  How would that change how I minister?  How would that change how I serve?  

God give me that passion the areas you have called me over: Children's Ministry, African Awareness Ministry, Administration, Friendship, Ministry to my family.