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Wednesday, March 26, 2008
31 Weeks Pregnant
When you are a thin/small person (normally 105 pounds) a lot of people don't realize that you are really uncomfortable at this stage of pregnancy. I keep getting people saying, "You don't even look pregnant" which is laughable to me, since I have gained 30 pounds already.
Mostly I just feel tired, really out of it, and unmotivated to do much (at work or home.) I get some energy spurts, but for the most part I feel pretty tired. The wierd thing is that when I go to lay down (thinking I will fall asleep immediatly) I just lay there...mind still working, but body just disabled.
I have been reading this morning about what labor feels like and other people's experience at 31 weeks. I just don't know how women do it who have kids!
I feel like a wimp a lot of the time and hope this doesn't carry over into my delivery. I want to be strong and do my best to try to make it through birth with very few drugs.
Since this is my first pregnancy, I really have no idea how having a baby boy is going to change my life. Everyone is telling my their stories about sleepless nights, no time for yourself, being contstantly covered in baby-fluids, etc.
I can't wait to meet our little baby boy...but it's just difficult to imagine! This is one of the biggest adventures yet.
Mostly I just feel tired, really out of it, and unmotivated to do much (at work or home.) I get some energy spurts, but for the most part I feel pretty tired. The wierd thing is that when I go to lay down (thinking I will fall asleep immediatly) I just lay there...mind still working, but body just disabled.
I have been reading this morning about what labor feels like and other people's experience at 31 weeks. I just don't know how women do it who have kids!
I feel like a wimp a lot of the time and hope this doesn't carry over into my delivery. I want to be strong and do my best to try to make it through birth with very few drugs.
Since this is my first pregnancy, I really have no idea how having a baby boy is going to change my life. Everyone is telling my their stories about sleepless nights, no time for yourself, being contstantly covered in baby-fluids, etc.
I can't wait to meet our little baby boy...but it's just difficult to imagine! This is one of the biggest adventures yet.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Taking Life Inventory
I believe this time of year always puts me in a funk about my purpose in life, whether I am fulfilling it, what goals I need to set for myself, and where I am at. (I know...most people do this at the New Year, but for whatever the reason, I wait until mid-March.)
This last year has definitely been an answer to prayer in many ways. Firstly, I got pregnant, which took a while, but I trust God had a reason for us waiting. Secondly, we were able to take an amazing vacation to Costa Rica in August. This was a refreshing time and it was so nice to be away and in a place we didn't know. I love adventure! This last year was a great marriage year. After being married 6, going on 7 years, I love my husband more every day and am so thankful for many things that make him an amazing spouse and friend.
So, what do I need to change? What things are nagging at my soul? Some of the things that I really enjoy (like spending time in the outdoors, looking closely at plants, developing my art, etc) most often get pushed aside so that I can watch who got voted off of 'American Idol.' I really despise this and feel that I lose out on what brings me true pleasure when I settle for things like sitting in front of the TV.
I also don't think I am pushing myself to be better in areas of work, career, serving other, etc. I have become very stagnant and often time feel pretty selfish. This is not the person I want to be. I one time heard a quote, "The best way to help others is to get your eyes off yourself." I think this is something I need to take to heart.
Often times I get gripped by fear of the future or fear of the details involved with a specific project. That fear paralyzes me and doesn't allow me to step out and do greater things.
Anyway, I want to break that fear and realize my full potential. I want to set bigger, grander goals for myself. I want to be a good example to the son I am about to give birth to on how to be strong and work hard for things in life.
I do not want to settle for mediocre.
Just some thoughts. I hope others can relate.
This last year has definitely been an answer to prayer in many ways. Firstly, I got pregnant, which took a while, but I trust God had a reason for us waiting. Secondly, we were able to take an amazing vacation to Costa Rica in August. This was a refreshing time and it was so nice to be away and in a place we didn't know. I love adventure! This last year was a great marriage year. After being married 6, going on 7 years, I love my husband more every day and am so thankful for many things that make him an amazing spouse and friend.
So, what do I need to change? What things are nagging at my soul? Some of the things that I really enjoy (like spending time in the outdoors, looking closely at plants, developing my art, etc) most often get pushed aside so that I can watch who got voted off of 'American Idol.' I really despise this and feel that I lose out on what brings me true pleasure when I settle for things like sitting in front of the TV.
I also don't think I am pushing myself to be better in areas of work, career, serving other, etc. I have become very stagnant and often time feel pretty selfish. This is not the person I want to be. I one time heard a quote, "The best way to help others is to get your eyes off yourself." I think this is something I need to take to heart.
Often times I get gripped by fear of the future or fear of the details involved with a specific project. That fear paralyzes me and doesn't allow me to step out and do greater things.
Anyway, I want to break that fear and realize my full potential. I want to set bigger, grander goals for myself. I want to be a good example to the son I am about to give birth to on how to be strong and work hard for things in life.
I do not want to settle for mediocre.
Just some thoughts. I hope others can relate.
Monday, August 6, 2007
Sports Camp
Some how I ended up directing a kid's Sports Camp this year. This is strange because I never really played sports growing up, don't have any favorite teams, and really get quite bored watching games (yes...football, basketball...you name it.)
So, anyway, I ended up...by default, the director of a Sports Camp. It was actually really fun to see kids, ages 6-12, running around, playing soccer, basketball and cheer leading.
I have always disliked cheerleaders. I think it started in High School, because most of my girlfriends were 'Majorettes'...which were like the 'dance-team'. The Majorettes always disliked the cheerleaders...and thus, since I was friends with them, their dislike rubbed off on me.
But, this week my like for cheer leading was reborn when I saw a 6 year old performing a cheer about burritos. "Hey burrito, hey, hey, burrito!"
Anyway, you just never know how God will use your talents, do you? Someone who is totally unaware of sports ends up directing a camp for 40+ sporty-kids....God is good and gives us grace in our shortcomings....always!
So, anyway, I ended up...by default, the director of a Sports Camp. It was actually really fun to see kids, ages 6-12, running around, playing soccer, basketball and cheer leading.
I have always disliked cheerleaders. I think it started in High School, because most of my girlfriends were 'Majorettes'...which were like the 'dance-team'. The Majorettes always disliked the cheerleaders...and thus, since I was friends with them, their dislike rubbed off on me.
But, this week my like for cheer leading was reborn when I saw a 6 year old performing a cheer about burritos. "Hey burrito, hey, hey, burrito!"
Anyway, you just never know how God will use your talents, do you? Someone who is totally unaware of sports ends up directing a camp for 40+ sporty-kids....God is good and gives us grace in our shortcomings....always!
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Just for Tina
Here is a blog for my friend Tina who has 'inspired' me to continue blogging.
Seriously, there hasn't been too much to blog about lately. Life is somewhat boring and mundane...I'm not afraid to say it.
I sort of feel like a flowering plant being pruned way back right now, during the winter. God is pruning me back...but I am not sure exactly when the buds are coming back.
I will continue to try to blog about this...but that's it for now folks.
Seriously, there hasn't been too much to blog about lately. Life is somewhat boring and mundane...I'm not afraid to say it.
I sort of feel like a flowering plant being pruned way back right now, during the winter. God is pruning me back...but I am not sure exactly when the buds are coming back.
I will continue to try to blog about this...but that's it for now folks.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
28 Years old
I turn 28 years old today. I don't why that is a defining year, but when I was was younger I always thought 28 was the year that:
1. Women were most beautiful- There was a maturity about women at that age, but they hadn't started getting a lot of gray hair and wrinkles yet. I imagined myself as a beautiful and distinguished 28 year old. The truth of the matter, is that I do have quite a few gray hairs and I don't feel any bit more beautiful today, than I did yesterday.
2. I assumed that by 28 one will have established their selves in an exciting and successful career. The truth is my thoughts of what my career would be are far different from what has actually occurred but I am happier than I probably ever would have been.
3. I thought 28 was the perfect time in one's life to start having children. The truth is that having children is very much out of our control. We cannot set a time or date on when we would like to have them.
Because of these three 'assumptions' 28 was always a big year for me. We will see what God has in store.
1. Women were most beautiful- There was a maturity about women at that age, but they hadn't started getting a lot of gray hair and wrinkles yet. I imagined myself as a beautiful and distinguished 28 year old. The truth of the matter, is that I do have quite a few gray hairs and I don't feel any bit more beautiful today, than I did yesterday.
2. I assumed that by 28 one will have established their selves in an exciting and successful career. The truth is my thoughts of what my career would be are far different from what has actually occurred but I am happier than I probably ever would have been.
3. I thought 28 was the perfect time in one's life to start having children. The truth is that having children is very much out of our control. We cannot set a time or date on when we would like to have them.
Because of these three 'assumptions' 28 was always a big year for me. We will see what God has in store.
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